Vanilla Sky

I really wish I had stopped thinking about you

Stopped torturing myself with something

That was so clearly untrue

How did I let myself fall into that delusion?

I clearly wasn’t as healthy as I thought

But didn’t I know this on some level?

After all, I knew not to tell anyone

What I was thinking, what I was hoping

And not because I thought they could ruin it

But because speaking it would shatter the possibility

It was a story I could tell only to myself

Because it would be clear to everyone else

That it was never reality